From old fashioned weaning to BLW at 9 months old

Hello,
I'm new to this forum, and to the whole BLW idea. I do know what it's about and have known for a while, I know other moms who have BLW their babies successfully, but for some reason didn't think it was for me and my baby, even after discussing it with my husband, and after he seemed to be interested in the idea.
So, I exclusively breastfed my baby until he was 6 months old; and then I started introducing him to solids, based on the Super Nutrition for Babies book, which recommends feeding babies soft egg yolks, meat, liver, healthy fat, no porridge, etc. So my baby's first solid food was mashed avocado, and he loved it. I continued with mashed veggies, from carrots to broccoli. Then at 7 months I introduced beef stew and served it with rice, pasta, risotto, chicken curries, and mashed them with a hand blender before serving.
At 8 months we started to cut the food in very tiny pieces, still pureeing some of the dishes we made. Now my baby is 9.5 months old and I have a huge problem. I can't feed my baby finger food. Not because he can't eat it, because he is actually ready, and has two teeth on top of all, but because I get terrified by the thought of him chocking. My husband tried giving him a stick of cucumber once, and my baby loved it, but I was panicking every time he would bite off a piece of cucumber,or if he ever gagged. I know that gagging is a reflex that helps them bring the food back to the mouth for an extra round of shewing, but I still can't help getting super anxious and nervous about it.
I'm afraid that, because of me, my baby is running behind in the whole eating by himself thing. Other babies that I know, that are the same age as he is, totally manage the grabbing and eating of fruits, bread, veggies, as it should be, and I can't even get my self to give him anything for him to grab and eat without getting super nervous and anxious. I tried with peas the other day, and my baby had such a hard time grabbing the tiny peas with his fingers, which I've seen other babies even younger than him do, and I know it's because I don't let him grab food and eat by himself. I feel so bad for keeping him behind
At the same time, the whole cooking special meals for him is becoming way too much... too time consuming, leaving no time to do anything else than cooking. So I've been thinking about starting him on BLW, but I don't know if it will work, since he's been already eating solids for three months, and I don't know at this point how to do it.
Can someone please advise if it would be a good idea to switch from conventional weaning to BLW at this stage? and if so, what would you recommend me doing to start off?
I appreciate your help!
Thanks in advance
I'm new to this forum, and to the whole BLW idea. I do know what it's about and have known for a while, I know other moms who have BLW their babies successfully, but for some reason didn't think it was for me and my baby, even after discussing it with my husband, and after he seemed to be interested in the idea.
So, I exclusively breastfed my baby until he was 6 months old; and then I started introducing him to solids, based on the Super Nutrition for Babies book, which recommends feeding babies soft egg yolks, meat, liver, healthy fat, no porridge, etc. So my baby's first solid food was mashed avocado, and he loved it. I continued with mashed veggies, from carrots to broccoli. Then at 7 months I introduced beef stew and served it with rice, pasta, risotto, chicken curries, and mashed them with a hand blender before serving.
At 8 months we started to cut the food in very tiny pieces, still pureeing some of the dishes we made. Now my baby is 9.5 months old and I have a huge problem. I can't feed my baby finger food. Not because he can't eat it, because he is actually ready, and has two teeth on top of all, but because I get terrified by the thought of him chocking. My husband tried giving him a stick of cucumber once, and my baby loved it, but I was panicking every time he would bite off a piece of cucumber,or if he ever gagged. I know that gagging is a reflex that helps them bring the food back to the mouth for an extra round of shewing, but I still can't help getting super anxious and nervous about it.
I'm afraid that, because of me, my baby is running behind in the whole eating by himself thing. Other babies that I know, that are the same age as he is, totally manage the grabbing and eating of fruits, bread, veggies, as it should be, and I can't even get my self to give him anything for him to grab and eat without getting super nervous and anxious. I tried with peas the other day, and my baby had such a hard time grabbing the tiny peas with his fingers, which I've seen other babies even younger than him do, and I know it's because I don't let him grab food and eat by himself. I feel so bad for keeping him behind

At the same time, the whole cooking special meals for him is becoming way too much... too time consuming, leaving no time to do anything else than cooking. So I've been thinking about starting him on BLW, but I don't know if it will work, since he's been already eating solids for three months, and I don't know at this point how to do it.
Can someone please advise if it would be a good idea to switch from conventional weaning to BLW at this stage? and if so, what would you recommend me doing to start off?
I appreciate your help!
Thanks in advance