DH and I seem to be going through a rough patch. On the face of it, we aren‘t, and everything seems fine. We had our first night out without J since he was born last weekend, and had a really lovely time.
But DH just seems totally knackered all the time and I‘m really worried that when baby arrives it will just break us. I can‘t work out what it is and maybe it‘s just pregnancy hormones.
The things that I think are making him knackered are work (he‘s been in a management role for the last 6 months and I‘m not sure he‘s really adjusted yet), J having a spate of early morning wakings (5:30am ish), watching all the world cup games, and his nana being ill and waiting to find out her prognosis (possibly widespread cancer).
We get in from work and stumble through tea time and bath time and bed time like zombies. DH is always on his phone, reading sports news and facebook and lord knows what else (of an adult nature if history is anything to go by). We do communicate but it seems really superficial. If I ask questions about his work or nana he will respond but he seems irritated by me.
At bath time today we were both sitting in the bathroom and I looked at him, he looks totally drained and grey and to my shame all I wanted to do was run away from him and go somewhere away from his irritability and J‘s constant demands and work and sit in a cool quiet place.
I‘m so scared that if he is this tired now, how will we cope with a newborn in the mix?
I‘m not sure this is making any sense....But I had to get it off my chest, so thanks for reading.